What to do

    One thing that had always held me back from starting school was the fact I didn’t know what I wanted to do. I have many interests, and even still I am unsure of exactly what I will be doing with my life. I have always seen myself as capable, and as long as I applied myself nothing ever seemed out of reach. After getting the initial inspiration to start school, I found myself thinking about how I could leave a legacy that would benefit mankind. At first, teaching young and hungry minds seemed to be the best thing I could do. Having recently lost my faith, so to speak,  I though theology or philosophy would be  where I was best suited. My desire to challenge religious thinkers and “liberate” closed-minded people overwhelmed me. I also became fascinated by why the brain latched onto these ideas. Over time, my zeal died out, though my distain and disgust has only grown.
    As I soaked my self in science videos on youtube, I was entranced with hours upon hours of Sagan, Dawkins, Hawkings, Aron Ra, Michio Kaku, etc. I came to find myself lost in the vastness of the universe, and the inconceivable tininess of an atom and its components. As my concern about religion diminished, my desire of wanting to know the how and why of the universe, what is composed of, its functions, its design, its laws. I found myself lost in a world I can’t yet hope to make true sense of. Physics, this incredible and unbelievable ideology, captured my interest. Other branches of science also sparked similar interest, but not to the same extent. I have also, always had a gift for math and physics seems to be the “holy grail” of accomplishment. I know I am capable of reaching this great hight; I just need the patience. If I strive to the fullest in this undertaking, I can, as they say, “Come to know the mind of god.”