Numbers

    I can see it all around me. It’s unescapable now. I can see it in everything. Even what I hear, touch, and taste is governed by it. More importantly, it governs almost all that we know and has even been argued to one day rule over all. Yet, it is not something that can be held; you could never see all of it. It is an idea so basic that it is considered by some literally self-evident. It drives me, gnaws at my brain, encourages me, and leaves me in awe. What is sad is that I do not understand it in the way that I feel I must.
    Math, as boring or mundane as most think it is, I revel in it. When watching a leaf fall to the ground, this most obviously speaks of gravity and the wondrous equation which lies within. Air resistance quickly comes into play by the nature of the leaf, so now the size, weight, shape, and density of the leaf now comes into play with an equation of gravity and they begin to harmoniously work within and interdependently of each other. The fact that I could do all the equations and work out the speed of the leaf’s decent, never having even seen said leaf, but only given all information required, absolutely astounds me.   
    We are, all of us, nothing but complex and symphonic equations being carried out in the ways of chemical reactions, at absurdly advancing levels of intricacy. Our thoughts are little more than electrical impulses running through a system of cells that can be theoretically divided so far down. It falls into an unknown, an elaborate series of interconnected strings moving at different vibrations, so small that no human can ever hope to begin to understand how small. Even if a “string” could one day be photographed some how, we, as a species, lack the ability to think of something so inconceivably small.
    Again the beauty of math springs before me, both the infinitesimally small and the tremendously large can be measured by it. The atoms are in a constant flux of adding and subtracting electrons, binding with other atoms to balance a mathematical equation of positive and negative charges. This causes the chemical combinations and reactions to occur which use or expel the force of electromagnetism in some way. Wonderfully, all these things can be seen as math: symbols given abstract properties by those victim to the very things they hope to understand.
    It is my dream, goal, and life’s work to learn as much about the laws of nature as humanly possible. I am beyond lucky to live in a time when so much is there to know, and still so much to prove. Yet perhaps, unlucky to not live many years later, where any contribution I could have possibly made now is but a footnote. Here, math, the biological clock of the body breaking down, a time limit if you will, is a haunting reminder of the power of numbers or rather the power we give numbers. 
    I feel as though a simple analogy can be made to my way of thinking. Let us take the famous apple falling from the tree. Yes, the apple falls, but why? The Earth makes it heavy by gravity, but then why does gravity work? These are the things I must know and it is my secret hope that one day all the known universe will be explained by math; that some equation, or set of equations could describe anything and everything. If however, this is not true and there are things that will be forever unknowable if not even by math but by any means, I will happily accept the proven truth of any matter.